Sunday, March 23, 2008

When space and time made no sense !!


Pleasant breeze,
Moonlit night,
Mirthful laughs
But where was I ?

Vapours clouded my eyes;
Silent din was all I heard;
My voice slurred
And I melted away !

A night lost
sans senses !
Words spoken,
I remember none !

I know not what of
All those silent thoughts
Locked away for eons -
Had they found a voice?

Confronting eyes of dears
The next morning !
I understood not - was it
Sympathy or scorn !

Wish that twilight never passed;
The temptation not yielded to ;
Would have been no regret nor the missing evening
Nor the sleepless nights for days after !

Sunday, July 29, 2007

Where is my home??

Silence is not allowed
Nor my voice!
I cannot cry
And cannot laugh either!

Being true to myself
Does it matter to anyone?
I do not understand
Is this ignorance or pretence?

Carnations everywhere
To hide their empty life!
Six blind men preaching
Elephants can fly!

Privacy and independence
The forbidden words !
In a woman's life
They have no place!

No right to question
No right to reason!
Old enough to bear children but
Never old enough to take decision!

This is my life
Damn with these fetters!
Oh invisible pink unicorn,
Take me to my home

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

If Only !!


Doused in red
Was the whole world !
But I felt so colorless
Because
You were not there !
You were not there
To be my valentine !

Hearts flying everywhere
Carrying the loving messages !
But none for me
Because
I was not there !
I was not there
In your thoughts !

You are just there
Before me !
But why do I feel
There are seven seas
Between us !
I look at you
But you look through me !
Its just one life I have
Dont take it from me !

You kill me
With such mighty silence
On your lips but your eyes
When locked with mine
Makes the moment
So divine!

My heart and eyes
Constantly at tiff !
Cant stop thinking about you !
Cant keep looking at you!

How eager I am
For those moments of
My silent thoughts
About you !
Broken by your mesmerizing voice
Only to realize
I have a choice -
You or my solitude !

I choose my solitude
Over you
I dread so much
We will end up as
such good pals!
My love locked away for ever!

Years from noww
When my hair turns grey
And I feel bad
I want you
Next to me !
With such shocking white locks of hair
Solace for me !

This life of mine
Is not to be taken by you !
But to be
Shared with you!

Monday, August 07, 2006

From cell to chip!!!!!!!!

The earth smells wet!
Dew glistens on the violets!
Mirth of innocence
The infant been blessed with!!!

I smell the earth!
I see the glistening dew!
Oh the sweetest kid,I sense
The mirth in you!

Alas
My heart refuses to enjoy
My fingers refuse to cease
The incessant playing on the keys!

Instruction galore, passed between
The man and the machine!
The Beauty of Life, I lost
I still seek in vain!

Just a shattered mind!
Just another blind heart!
Between the machine and me,
I think I've lost!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Clueless!!!!

Everyday,I walk past you
My eyes pretend not to see you
My head turns away!
You may wonder why
And I would lie
Brush you aside with a nay!
When I speak to you
I look into your eyes
To leave you clueless
of all the love
In me for you!
I hide behind the mask
That has stood thru time
My heart bleeds,though
Lacerated with the love
Unspoken,yet!
Another day shall dawn
I will bid adieu to another dusk
I will walk past you, I know
I would still turn away!


Saturday, January 21, 2006

what else to say----My musings perhaps!!!!!!!

The last time this particular webpage was opened by me, I guess it was Sep 6th,2005. Has been a while. Life has changed. I have moved on. Made new friends and have forgotten them by now as well...am sure am out of their minds as well ...I believe in "out of sight ...out of mind".....looks like they do as well ;-)...oh yeah..forgot to mention...the background in which all these are happening is the Wipro EC (for the fortunate mortals not in bangalore....EC =Electronic City) campus....my happening place of last 4months..to b precise...from Sep 19th..the day I joined Wipro.

well..am so tempted to furnish all the trivial details...but they have a better place to be immortalised and they have already been - my mind! Have some great memories - Thx to my cousins & Abhi, Sanind and Hims!!

The training ( am a proud mainframer now :-P ) was one smooth song...now into the project and doing damn good there as well...well, a lesson learnt...beware of the compliments from ur PM---itz just a harbinger of more work!!!!!!!!!

the reason i opened this page after a long time was because of certain musings of mine I saw in my notepad--the one used during the trng and I just wanted to convert thm 2 electronic form so that I can keep chuckling whne'er I read thm......They seem to b the conclusive evidence of the fact......I am capable of creating my own world and living in it :-P!!!!!!!

Beware of insanity in the text to follow :P

I hear them speak
The same words as mine
But a meaning in them
I cease to find!!

Am lost
Knowing not what I seek
Oh my feet,
Take me yonder
To the land of unexplored virginity!!!!!

Thou shant fear
My thoughts shall guide you!
Just keep walking
With a steady pace
Bliss shall we find
When we are out of this maze!!!!!

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Thou shall suffer
for
all the love inside you!!!

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How can s'one be a
Friend and the foe
At the same time?
My silence is!!!!!

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A thousand meanings
you revealed!!
When you smiled!!!

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I am tired !
My soul pleads to leave
Please reveal-
Are you my mirage
or my oasis!!!

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Guess this is craziest of thm all---am still wondering why the hell I wrote it :-P

If I could
I would!
Even if you wouldnt
I would!
But if shouldn't
I wont!!!!!

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:-)))))




Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Visitors from the netherworld !


He says,
The moon has become bad
He wonders,
The indigo sky looks so sad

Is it mourning the company
of the night, he asks
"Visitors from the netherworld"
At the thought, he stops

He shudders
to see his shadow
he dreads
what if it swallows

He doesnt know
Whether he is alone
And he doesnt want
to know if it isnt so!

Not just his reflection
His mirror seems to show
There is no doubt there is
Another pallid translucent show

A thousand secrets
The wind screams
It is a nightmare
Not his sweet dream!

A safest place
he simply cant find
After all, they are
The demons of his mind!

Specially dedicated to a certain love fish I know :-)

Friday, September 02, 2005

World - A Kaleidoscope?!

On a day in my own world
My own world of infinitesimal space
Space barely enough to bear one
Just one and thats me
Me and my thoughts alone
Alone...So Alone......

The state of bliss didnt last
The last thing I wanted was
Was my soul to start amusing
Amusing at the world it lived in
In the real world - A world crowded
Crowded ... So crowded.....

My soul was chuckling
Chuckling..teasing..knowing
Knowing me so well, it couldnt
Couldnt stop me from my
My wish- A wish insignificant
Insignificant....So insignificant

My heart wishes so hard
Hard it tries to understand all
All on the face of this world
A world of so many colors
Colors some vibrant and some dull
Some dull ...so dull

My soul wants to know
Know if my heart intends to
To capture the hues of the world
The world's colors on a canvas
A canvas so long and so broad
Broad....so broad

My heart says wish it could do
To replicate the scenes of the woods,
Brown woods...Azure seas..white pearls
Pearls some big some small so different
Different shades of the blue sky
The sky..the vast sky

However hard my heart tries
To understand the colors of
People-man,woman and child
It could never fathom and fails
Fails to see their colors changing
Changing...all the time

With obvious calmness in the smile
Smile of an omniscient soul
My soul asked just one question
One question to which I wish
I knew the answer to---
My color...What is my color?

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

Are u my love?



I dreamt the other day
Of a face I have never seen !
Moments with that stranger
The most surreal scene!

Never had sensed anything
so foggy yet so real !
The need in your eyes
A touch so dear !

The words you spoke
why couldnt I hear?
The warm breath of yours
Will I feel for ever?


The culprit of my eyes opened
And the vapour of my dream freed!
Hoping I shall be forgiven
By the strange face I have never seen!

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Third rock from the Sun !

Planet Earth --- The third rock from the Sun ! This planet has never ceased 2 fascinate me not because I'm here---because I cant b anywhere else ! After all I'm a carbon based organism tat can survive only in an Oxygen atmosphere :-(............

Space travel...was....is and will be an obsesssion with me thro my life...I think....Right..from the day i knew there are 9 planets revolving aroud our Sun...I've always wondered y cant one find another Sun / Earth among the billions trillions God knows how many stars....naturally...ETz shud exist but I dont believe in one thing....its not necessary that they may be technologically advanced as we are ( but most of the hollywood movies presume so...Mebee ppl always like 2 visualize thm facing tragedies...in movies atleast...the tragedies are overcome....inreal? )

hv been reading Foundation series of Asimov.....somehow the technology...though it is Asimov's creativity tat deserves credits.....yeah...the technology..technologies described seem quite feasible.....cant say much abt the hyper spatial travel though..but gravitic planes....nuclear power based products......they are quite possible......

i was totally wowed by the concept of psychohistory....brilliantly based on Kinetic theory of gases...am wondering,....if any of the mathematicians are indeed doing some kinda work on it?

mapping the whole galaxy --- tat wud b one hell of a job!

Another brilliant concept----- Using religion as a binding factor! religion is another thing i'm obsessed with! rather...the origin of religions..i shud say! in this days of such a low religious tolerance..i shud make myself clear! in fact...i think this shud hv been a borrowed concept from our world itself....wasnt Christianity chosen as a common religion to unite the thn defragmented Europe? If i see in tat light....does EU formation reflect the strategy adopted by Hober Mallow ( one of the mayors of terminus / Foundation )

Was reading this article in THE HINDU...an interview with the man I admire the most ---APJ Abdul Kalam....the timing cudnt b anymore perfect...already my mind was lighted with the fire of science fiction...but the interview...made me 2 start believin' tat the time would surely come whn wat we read as fiction is no longer so! Anyways...his ideas of having indigenous hyper planes and Earth - Moon- Mars---interplanetary association are brilliant!

I am a strong believer in the fact tat the human mind is the best treasure---A treasure whose value hasnt been realised completely yet! I believe tat any man has the potential to achieve anything he / she wants!

Well............all I want is-----------this fantasy of mine ...this obsession...this dream of "humanity across galaxy" to come true !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Back in the wilderness of a paradise named "Pilani" !

"Vetti" sem...the response one gets for a thesis sem..the final leg of a beautiful journey from being an annoying teenager to a confident adult.....'n a successful one too......well...3 jobs ....as far as I am concerned..certainly makes me a succesful one ;-).....
This sem is turning out to be the sem of my dreams. No need to feel guilty about getting up late. "Late" ...(my wingies are screaming)...is an understatement...The wing is getting used to wishing me "morning" at 2 pm...I'm also thinking of signing out from mess..Is there a way I can sign out only for breakfast 'n lunch? If s'body knows..Plz be merciful 'n lemme know....


Well...I am beginning to think I'm helpless..incorrigible..incapable of self control..BTW..there are words like"resolutions" 'n "promises"..right?The reason behind me gettin' hopeless abt me is tht I had drafted the above highlighted passage a jolly good month ago 'n i could never bring my ---- to complete it!

'n 2 damn myself..i've been creating blog/journal spaces wherever i can lay my hands on..Should I say "mouse" on ;-)..msn spaces..h2g2 site..blah this blah tht...well..seems like i've formulated the new uncertainty principle for bloggin' --applicable only 2 myself-- "If u hv a blogspace, U cannot find a blog in it"....

Its 7.51 am 'n i hvn't slept a wink thro the night....Mr & Mrs Iyer to my company for the first part of night..then r very ol' F.R.I.E.N.D.S to accompany thro the rest of the night!

Its gettin' fuckin' irritatin' 2 work with the rest of the team 4 I4RI coz of my weird sleepin' habits....am losin' tht human touch in myself....well..once in a while..hv yearned for a human face 2..coz it would hv been quite a while since I had seen one!

High time i take control of my life..or Am i fine with this way...................................................

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

What is Tsunami?

Inspite of all the technological advances humans can boast,mankind is still at the mercy of Nature.This was proved and the world tasted the consequences of Nature's fury this sunday.
What is a "Tsunami"? in Japanese "Tsunami" means "Large sea waves".Tsunamis are huge tidal waves tht can sometime rise as high as 10m...Pacific region is not a stranger to tsunamis....But south asia was certainly an absolute stranger to this phenemenon caused by seismic activity under water bodies...to chk out wht causes a tsunami..click on the following
Tsunamis de-mystified!

There is news abt the change of India's coastline as well..
Tsunamis change the coastline


The Black Sunday

Truly, this Sunday was the darkest in many a ones lives in South Asia. The seemingly calm ocean waters can unleash such a havoc..this is something i had not given thought abt in my 21 yrs of earthly life..The trips to beach hv always left pleasant memories..till this sunday...The sandy shores on which I had trodden a coupla days before no longer exists to bear testimonial to my great times there....The kids who used 2 wave a big Hi hv been swallowed, leaving a void in their loved ones life....Wailings of mothers,wives 'n sisters wring the fibres of my heart 'n corpses..God wht a sight tht was.....Families hv perished with nobody to identify the bodies 'n survivors are lacking the reason to live any longer...Even in these tragic circumstances..there are few ignoble souls who actually break into the locked houses 'n loot the remaining stuff...I shouldn't even b calling them souls coz any human with a soul within him wouldn't dare to dream about such an action...
I feel grateful tht I am of some help to these victims of the nature's fury and I hope these ppl find a purpose for living soon.
Thanks to all the corporates and generous beings for their generosity!

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Happy New year to all the Jews !!!!!!

Happy Rosh Hashanah!
Have no idea if thtz how the Jews all over the world are greeting each other right now....juz came to know tht today is Jews' New Year....So my greetings 2 all of u...
I was always very interested in knowing about religions esp. Judaism,right from the time when I was 15 yrs old...The book "Acts of faith " by Erich Segal introduced me to the religion which otherwise was existing only as any other religion's name I had mugged in history class ...I was quite knowledgeable about christianity..thanx to all the convents 'n christian management schools I had attended...Guess..must be having atleast 3 bibles at home..inspite of the fact tht I am a tam-Brahm....
Somehow..I think understanding the origin of religions would help one to understand the evolution of human thinking and the act of living in conformity with the society...I feel "Religion" is more of a lifestyle one has adopted 'n lives his life in conformity to the principles of the religion....Hence I think all the riots in the name of religion are crap 'n excuses to human craving for blood...Atheist I am, I feel this whole of "I do it in the name of God" thingee crap but religions intrigue me a lot....Hence..whenever i get time,I search and get to know more about different religions..the practices...the place of origin....the common things I find between different religions or sects whose place of origin is same or in the neighbourhood of one another...
Judaism - Christianity - Islam----This is one helluva combination..I should say..for any of those who wants to take up research on religions....all of them have Jerusalem as their Sacred Place....the religions tht have middle east as their place of origin...they also seem to be major inspiration for many of the authors...
Read this book "The Haj" by Leon Uris...after reading , i was so inspired to discover more about the creation of Israel tht the very next thing i did was google search 'n find as much as i can .,.about Israel 'n Palestine....
These books 'n the search make me ponder about the thinking process of humans 'n their obstinacy in accepting anything not related to them as Superior....
As an atheist...I beg to differ from the believers about the existence of God..coz i have different point of view about the same about which I will write tomorrow...maybe tht wud answer those who think I am close minded 'n one needs to be open minded when it comes to believing in God....

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

INCOHERENT RAMBLINGS !!!!

Wish I could get to know more of the humorous bloggers....One always wishes for what one doesnt have...
Weird but true....There is this specific blog where I am a regular but nowadays I observe tht I am interested more in the comments than in the blog itself..
Hmm...I know the phrase " tongue-tied" but whenever I wish to blog..somehow I become "finger-tied"...words refuse to get transported from the grey cells to the monitor cell..
Couldnt believe when I found tht there are people other than me who have actually read "Rowan " series...Rowan & Damia hold a special place in my memory coz those were the first of sci - fi novels I had read...'n somehow I was under the impression nobody would hv even heard of the book 'n the author...Well..jobless as I was today..I thot lemme do some Google search on the book..'n was surprised to discover there are fan clubs for the author "Anne Mccaffrey"..'n tht there are more books in the series. Its been nearly 7 yrs since I read the book...'n I wish to complete the rest s'times...Similar case for "Ender's Series" as well...
hv taken a resolution.."No more blowing of fuse in head"....whatever hapns..i am not going to let my fuse blow 'n start cursing all the stars 'n the causative agent's birth time..

  • even If my flatmate melted the safety valve on the pressure cooker by refusing to be generous about the amount of water in the cooker...'n refused to open the door coz she has decided tht she wont open the door tht day..though she has the key...
  • even if the Six seater vehicle guy refuses to start his vehicle unless there are more than 8 people in the 6-seater...(wonder y they call it 6 seater then)....
  • even if the guy who hardly knows me calls me a kiddo....
  • even if I think the dress I am wearing makes me look broad.

s'times i really feel very bitchy 'n want to bitch ...but the damn conscience reminds me of a scene--- the angel with a halo around the head 'n Satan himself,with horns on head 'n a pointed tail(like the block arrow in MS word)..'n me in between..'n somehow the angel always succeeds to get the bar of chocolate I dig 'n wins me over ..thus stopping me from bitching 'n letting the count of wretched souls in Satan's list unaltered.

There is this resolution I wanna make but am not sure can keep up...

I WANT TO BLOG DAILY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, September 11, 2004

JOLLY GOOD TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God bless Tim Berner Lee.
4 years...since myself , Priya, Sumita & Soumya had been in contact. Thanks to the internet now we are back together though virtually!Never once believed in 4 years that a day would come again when all of us would be a having an avalanche of mails from one another in our inbox.Now..time for nostalgic memories....School days...goood ol' school days...the days that stand out in life marked with the most wonderful memories...the days that came with the tag " no strings attached"the days that never demanded manners nor pretension of having them..days of uniform....'n the heavy bags ...'n report cards 'n Parent teacher meetings...assembly...back bench crackers...teacher trying to disband the "gangs" formed in the class..by making us sit apart...far..the days when we used to mark "must read" pages from Sidney Sheldon...confessions of first crush...start of hanging outs with friends....of course..with meaningless rivalry when it comes to academics..still remember the yell from..leave ..it..I dont remember who it was.."Hey..how much did ya score in language paper..am totalling r marks"...how can one forget gossips when it comes to bunch of teenage gals...the "enlightment session" from the knowledgeable to the ignorants...dont bother abt what kinda "knowledge"...hmmm..the day myself 'n Sumi were sharing A jokes 'n suddenly Priya was there,crying 'n somehow managed successfully to say "Hey u 2 always leave me out of this stuff"...hmmm..the march past days...from morn 6 to 9 'n then from evening 3 to sometime I dont remember...the same days of writing imposition of trignometric formulae for failing to tell the half-angle formulae.and the sadistic pleasure the maths sir derived out of making us do the imposition when he very well knew that were not present in the class due to march past practice....the days when we admired our English ma'am for the way she conducted herself in the class with us and the Physics ma'am for the way she tied her saree...V had great fun going to sanskrit classes...'n cant forget the teachers who had no clue about the usage of prepositions in English 'n still had ample of them when they talked.......Then ..as life went....I had the "misfortune" of getting admitted into BITS-Pilani...far away from friends 'n family...the distance certainly showed....in the very short time we had whenever we got together..it was very obvious we were losing things in common...except for me..the rest of the gang..stayed in Pondicherry 'n were admitted in the same college...so somehow the conversation always ended with reference to something or some one they all knew but I didnt...soon the meetings too ceased to happen........'n as the I started..it had been 4 yrs since.........
Now the jolly good times are back................
A big thanks to Sumi for the gmail invitation..
Gals..missed u lots

Cut..Copy 'n Paste!!!!

The following are the copies of my blogs which I posted from other ID...Since I am planning to make the other Id non - functional 'n also didnt want to lose my precious "feelings translated to writings"...I did the one thing which student community cant do without..the student community can be read as "bitsians" ...........COPY 'n PASTE...
here they are
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MUTATION INTO A 'ROACH
sssshhhh secret..woke up @ 2 in the afternoon.guess papa shud hv left me juz like tht and i mite be sleeping till now 4 all i know.If u want 2 know laziness personified,then it should be I ,my guess.Waking up,preparing breakfast,not eating it,going to sleep,wake up in the afternooon,hv the breakfast i prepared,then watch a movie,or listen 2 songs on the channels almost all jobless ppl watch,then go to sleep again,act as though I am Miss.Busy Bee when papa & bro come from office 'n college respectively and then take bath,giving 'xcuses abt how i had 2 wait on ppl all thro the day and sometimes lying tht thtz the second time i'm having bath,then prepare dinner,act b4 Papa tht I'm not like other gals watching movies 'n songs and mooning over handsome hunks which i do 4 the whole day and stick 2 NDTV 'n CNBC when papa is there at home not even letting him watch Euro 2004 or ODI bet.England and WI or Rabobank cup match between India and Netherlands or stupid soaps he watches once in a while (therez a lie once again,he watches one daily and couple on weekends),pull a fight with bro 4 the sake of fighting,then chtg with a guy all night who is desperate 2 find his looks that he never had or some gal who wud complete him-with something he doesnt hv-looks.Actually,he is not bad looking.I cant get from where does this notion of he lacking looks come 2 him.Guess soon,my DNA sequence is going 2 be identified with that of cockroach as i am not able 2 fathom my nocturnal inclinations.If u think,its bcoz of my sleepin thro the day,i think its the other way around.I am turning into Periplaneta americana or should i say Indiana.Everybody beware,here is the most dreaded mutation taking place!!!!!!!

PUNE RENDEZVOUS!!!!!!!
Pune..another place with a P ....in my life..Pondicherry,Pilani 'n now Pune..Its been a month in Pune...'n Pune is certainly not a place of surprises..4 me...feels so much like just another town...the feel of another small town trying 2 match up to its big bro "Mumbai"..but then the place has a flavour of its own...the best thing abt it is it has some thing to offer to everybody...the student crowd..the lovey-dovey couple..."am just getting 2 know what is life" kinda ppl...'n then of course,"listen 2 me..i know everything..ur age is my experience"--the elders.....LISTEN CHENNAI..this is certainly one place u wud b jealous of ..this is the first time I had seen rain pour non-stop 4 24 hrs....well....of course..i wont say i 'n joyed coz all my darling dresses got soiled bcoz of tht..'god damn hey dont dry at all ....'n then of course . life wud b certainly cool..coz ur house keeps leaking all the time....thk God my EB bill will come down drastically..no fan at all...the much spoken abt night life..am yet 2 explorebut i know one thing 4 sure..this is one place one wud mighty well 'n joi like hell with friends..B4 somebody from the company seize my comp 'n my job ..lemme wrap

CAT BLUES!!!!!!!!!!!!

So the inevitable has finally come!the day i dreaded so much..making decisions when it comes to CAT!Which coaching institute..which package..which of the institutes..all IIMs or any non-IIM in between....'n daily blues..these many hours of preparation..again another conflict...shall i go 4 8 hrs at the weekend or 2 hrs everyday..my god ..if preparing 4 a management degree is such a pain..how wud a job be?but thn..whatever mind knows..heart refuses 2 accept..says "Management is ur forte ".."so go 4 it"so..am all set 2 do my best..LISTEN IIMz..here I come

Strange turns!!!!!!

Life is like a river and that too a wild one!Not only in the fact that ,like a river, life moves on forever, but also because no one can be sure of what is the path it is going to follow.And one cant be sure of what might accompany them during the journey.

One doesnt begin the journey with the thought of a flood and being washed away.The beginning brings with itself the pure mirth of discovering what is there to be revealed along the journey,the joy of learning and the thrill of knowing no fear.Then he sees the water swallowing some lower forms of organisms. A slight pang of fear creeps into his mind and he starts thinking how the waters can destroy him and how should he protect himself.
Meanwhile,he has stopped enjoying beauty around him.The only thing he is bothered about is reaching his destination safe--hassle-free,with his near and dear ones.Now the waters rise and he is very worried because his beloved wont be able to survive if it rises anymore.He does his best to save her.Sometimes he is able to save her.Then he finishes the journey with a feeling of satisfaction.If he is not able to save her,then he tries to jump in after her or the others persuade him to continue the journey,he does so unwillingly and full of remorse.
But,in either case,he didnt enjoy the joy of travelling amongst the wild plants with flowers of various hues and fragrance that grows "just like that" along the sides of river.He didnt see the little rabbits hopping between the yellow and pink flowers.He didnt relish the sight of the colourful butterflies sucking nectar from the flowers.
The man has completed his journey.Now,should he turn back and see what he has missed or move from there and go where his feet take him?

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

What am I paid for?

Werent there days when I wished so much that I absolutely had nothing to do..nothing to look forward to....
Alas the day has come...Plz note the word "alas"...am sitting before the comp..trying to do something useful but in vain...
And I feel terribly guilty chatting or mailing..living in a state of perpetual tension is hell...
so..what do i do
I BLOG!!!!!!
sometimes I wonder whether I hv become a workaholic(i sound as though being one is despicable)
well..I hv to return to work.Hmm..Firstly lemme do the work of finding some work!!!!!!!

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

The "New" feeling

Why does my heart always skip a beat whene'er I am acquiring something new-be it a dress,book,or trying out new dish,or even creating a new blog. The moment of getting something new is always wonderful.
I am so stuck for words coz this is a new blog 'n new means special to me..so anything that goes into it shud b special too...
As much as I love getting something new,so rapidly I lose interest in them 'n look forward to the next "new" thing in life...
God save me when i get married..imagine wht wud hapnif I lose my interest in the marriage'n look forward to new one:)