Where is my home??

Silence is not allowed
Nor my voice!
I cannot cry
And cannot laugh either!

Being true to myself
Does it matter to anyone?
I do not understand
Is this ignorance or pretence?

Carnations everywhere
To hide their empty life!
Six blind men preaching
Elephants can fly!

Privacy and independence
The forbidden words !
In a woman's life
They have no place!

No right to question
No right to reason!
Old enough to bear children but
Never old enough to take decision!

This is my life
Damn with these fetters!
Oh invisible pink unicorn,
Take me to my home

If Only !!

Doused in red
Was the whole world !
But I felt so colorless
Because
You were not there !
You were not there
To be my valentine !

Hearts flying everywhere
Carrying the loving messages !
But none for me
Because
I was not there !
I was not there
In your thoughts !

You are just there
Before me !
But why do I feel
There are seven seas
Between us !
I look at you
But you look through me !
Its just one life I have
Dont take it from me !

You kill me
With such mighty silence
On your lips but your eyes
When locked with mine
Makes the moment
So divine!

My heart and eyes
Constantly at tiff !
Cant stop thinking about you !
Cant keep looking at you!

How eager I am
For those moments of
My silent thoughts
About you !
Broken by your mesmerizing voice
Only to realize
I have a choice -
You or my solitude !

I choose my solitude
Over you
I dread so much
We will end up as
such good pals!
My love locked away for ever!

Years from noww
When my hair turns grey
And I feel bad
I want you
Next to me !
With such shocking white locks of hair
Solace for me !

This life of mine
Is not to be taken by you !
But to be
Shared with you!