If Only !!

Doused in red
Was the whole world !
But I felt so colorless
Because
You were not there !
You were not there
To be my valentine !

Hearts flying everywhere
Carrying the loving messages !
But none for me
Because
I was not there !
I was not there
In your thoughts !

You are just there
Before me !
But why do I feel
There are seven seas
Between us !
I look at you
But you look through me !
Its just one life I have
Dont take it from me !

You kill me
With such mighty silence
On your lips but your eyes
When locked with mine
Makes the moment
So divine!

My heart and eyes
Constantly at tiff !
Cant stop thinking about you !
Cant keep looking at you!

How eager I am
For those moments of
My silent thoughts
About you !
Broken by your mesmerizing voice
Only to realize
I have a choice -
You or my solitude !

I choose my solitude
Over you
I dread so much
We will end up as
such good pals!
My love locked away for ever!

Years from noww
When my hair turns grey
And I feel bad
I want you
Next to me !
With such shocking white locks of hair
Solace for me !

This life of mine
Is not to be taken by you !
But to be
Shared with you!