What am I paid for?

Werent there days when I wished so much that I absolutely had nothing to do..nothing to look forward to....
Alas the day has come...Plz note the word "alas"...am sitting before the comp..trying to do something useful but in vain...
And I feel terribly guilty chatting or mailing..living in a state of perpetual tension is hell...
so..what do i do
I BLOG!!!!!!
sometimes I wonder whether I hv become a workaholic(i sound as though being one is despicable)
well..I hv to return to work.Hmm..Firstly lemme do the work of finding some work!!!!!!!